Phantom Darkness

I have been walked alone in the chapel after dinner for some times. There was complete dark and silence. Nothing can be felt, seen or touched. However, there was something up rising from the bottom of my mind. It was the phantom of darkness---dread, solitude, misery, etc. Generally speaking, the thoughts of human should be based on realistic beings; I know they come from darkness, but in fact, however, can anyone figure out what darkness is? How to describe it? What is in it? We don’t know. Only are we able to feel those awkward thoughts from it, they are from unknown but we know how they are, they are the phantom of darkness. Human are award of their mind power, yet on the other hand, human suffer from mind too. They are strangely powerful. There were several days when I was having class, everything was normal, however, I was stuck. They arose from my heart and eroded it, isolated me from material to immaterial world. They are the phantom of darkness; you don’t know when they will come out and occupy the bright room. So powerful they are, still not undefeatable. The reason that I called them phantom is because they are not solid. The solid of a man is volition. You cannot stop phantom but you can distinguish it. Never give up when you are in bad mood, everyone is feeling bad some time. However, true volition meets no limit of time. No matter how many times you fall, the important consequence is that you get up after it. We cannot see or feel, but it exists. We cannot avoid or give up, but we are to fight. Instead of stuck ourselves in the phantom of darkness, why not get out and enjoy the true life with sunshine? Let the steel volition lead my way.